Chapter EIGHTY- NINE: THE SPACE IN BETWEEN
“Okay thanks,” I took it. As I walked down the hall way I opened the note. It was just basic. Nothing special. Not a rosy poem or sweet morning words with promises or anything like that. Just a few words that was his while the rest was that of the doctor’s with the prescription of the medication. It scared me because he had changed overnight.
He had promised to handle my medication himself but now he just dumped it all in a note the morning after we made love. What was more terrifying than that? I couldn’t let my head reside in the thought that he might actually be feeling a certain way perhaps thinking otherwise. While I hummed all morning to a sweet rhythm in my head with him all over my mind he thought the opposite. It wasn’t fair.
I matched down to his chambers. Maybe I was over thinking it. He could just be occupied with his Lycan King duties.
“Kieran,” I knocked and called out to him.Published by Nôv'elD/rama.Org.
“Kieran,” I called out again but he didn’t seem to hear.
“I know you are in there,” my knocks had turned into a noisier bang but still there was no response. And then, I heard footsteps from a distance. It was Alex.
“Hey Alex. Do you by any chance know where he is? I have been knocking for a while now,” I chuckled. But he kept a straight face along with the rest of the guards that I had seen earlier.
“He is in his chambers,” he said.
“Well, I don’t think so because I have been knocking and no one is responding.”
“Well, the King has given strict instructions that he doesn’t want to be bothered.”
I looked at the files in his hands.
“But you were going to see him.”
“Yeah, the thing is this instruction is just for you. The King has instructed that he doesn’t want to be bothered by you.”
“What? Why? I didn’t do anything wrong.” I couldn’t understand why Kieran could do this to me at a time like this.
“I’m sorry but you need to leave, please. I wouldn’t want to do this the hard way.”
“Okay fine. We wouldn’t have to go to that extent. I’ll go back now.”
As I walked back to my room, my chest burned and my heartbeat even faster than it did before. My eyes began to get hot and I quickened my steps to get to my room as I avoided having any eye contact with anyone. I didn’t know which hurt most. He had been a perfect gentleman all night but he couldn’t look the woman he had been with in the face. Which made me less of myself. I felt like a whole. Like every other whore that he had a one night stand with. What made it any different now?
I didn’t know how much womanly pride I had left in me but it drained off the very second he had given Alex those instructions. I could have given up. Perhaps returned to my room and crash on the bed. Force my eyes to close so that it would drift into sleep. Sleeping had always been therapeutic for me. But then, an inner part of me wanted to still see him. I had been around him a while to know a bit about his schedule and movement. And so I hung around his chambers. With the hope that he would walk out. Not too long my prediction was right because he actually did walk out with Alex. I mirrored his movement and waited just close to his chambers as he walked back in. And then I went for it. Diving right into his chambers right before the door would close shut.
“Clara, what are you doing here?”
“I’m trying to understand the reason why you are avoiding me.”
“Avoiding you? Clara please I have just been busy. You know the blood moon is tomorrow.”
“Fuck the blood moon. You know what I mean. You even had to tell your beta to keep me out? What did I do wrong?”
“You did nothing wrong. Don’t make a big deal out of this.”
“Kieran we made love to each other. You wanted it as much as I did. What’s there not to talk about?”
“Clara from where I see it, it’s just sex. Two grown ups starved from having such pleasure finally decide to help each other out. That’s just what it is. If you want me to pay you, I can arrange for that.”
I landed my palm on his chin as the last word fell out. He winched holding his chin.
“How dare you? I’m not a whore Kieran.”
“I’m sorry that came out wrong. But what we had was a mistake,” He scrubbed his chin.
“Well, I doubt that you feel that way.”
“What do you mean?”
“Look me in the eyes, and tell me that what happened yesterday was mistake.”
I walked closer to him with a piercing gaze. He avoided my eyes.
“Look at me! Tell me that you didn’t like what you saw. Tell me that you didn’t moan my name or liked it when I screamed yours. Just tell me that you didn’t feel the thrills that came the very first time that you went in between my legs feeling my wetness. Tell me…”
He grabbed me and looked into my eyes his gaze like a piercing burn of rushing desires. I felt it too. There was a surge of energy in him as he kissed me his heated breath caressing my neck.
“Tell me that you don’t want this,” I gasped as he pulled away and turned me over pinning me to the door. The next second he lifted my dress bending me a bit over. His fierceness and sparking cravings made me dripped. I gasped at his hardness in me as he thrusted from behind. He gripped my neck as he pumped me hard. It was an intoxicating pleasure the one that breeds upmost satisfaction.
He grabbed my breasts as he jammed so hard. I was angry at him and so I moaned his name. I heard his moans behind my ear. He thrusted fast. I loved it fast. As he thumped, I could hear the hinges of the door as we went back and forth. I closed my eyes as the feeling of his hardness rubbed against the walls. Every inch and edge. I could feel him.
The tension coiled tighter, like a pressure within me that demanded release. I knew I was getting closer to where Kieran was taking me. My breath hitched, short and shallow, a gasp that escaped just as his. I felt the comforting sensation in my abdomen like burrowing under a thick blanket on a cold night. As my skin touched the door and his body behind, it only grew the intensity within me. My senses sharpened. The air itself seemed charged.
Then it was as if there was a spark. My muscles clenched, that I arched my back and dug my fingers on the door. It was a thrill unlike any other and a tiny explosion of sensation followed immediately. A choking moan escaped my lips as I raggedy gasped for breath. My eye lids fluttered close. And then came the release. Kieran’s grip around my neck lessened. He might have gotten there as well. My body felt heavy. My legs shivered it was like an aftershock and slowly, every muscle relaxed. But I still didn’t leave the door. I only knew that Kieran had gone to the bathroom after the bathroom door shut close.
I adjusted my dress and walked out of his chambers even before he was out of the bathroom. I didn’t want to see him. Not after what he had done earlier. He wouldn’t steal that moment from me. It was mine.