43- Not to end
Chassy
I know I am being hasty with those remarks, but I am already dying out of worry for my pack and the others. ‘It’s natural for you to feel that way because you know our part in this war. But you have to use your head, C.’ Thea said, and I agree with her.
‘Daddy Jay said it was in three months, but you know that we are still lacking up to this point.’ I replied, ‘I can see the squad and our warriors improving. I know I can trust Sims and Allie with Daddy Jay and the others, but I can’t help feeling scared for their safety.’ I added.
‘Trust our mate. He is strong. The moon goddess paired us with him because she knew he could help us,’ she said. I sighed heavily, and I admit that she’s the most rational between me and her. There are times when I make idiotic decisions, and I am thankful that Daddy Jay was there to correct me, remind me, or even tell me of the possible consequences of my actions. And I think she has a point. ‘Remember, C. Patience is a virtue,’ she reminded me before she retreated to the back of my head.
I had a lot of that when I was still living here in the Red Moon Pack. I was patient and very understanding toward pack members who had not done good to me ever since. It’s not that I hold grudges; I already forgive them, and I think they are still worried because I can still feel their uneasiness whenever I am around. But I tried my hardest to show them that it was all in the past and that I was their Luna, and they could count on me.
Being the omega I was once, I experienced pain more than the others. It should be enough for me to hate the world, but thank the goddess that Daddy Jay found me in the stream. He made me what I am today, and because of his kindness, I am not going to let his teachings go to waste.
After some thought, I went back to Xander’s office. When I told him earlier about what I thought, he objected instantly, and we had a little fight. I know that he was only concerned about me because he knew that I would be the one to jump on that attack, if ever. “Come in,” I heard him say, so I turned the knob before opening the door and entering. He knew that it was me, so he was already looking and waiting for me. I closed the door and walked to him slowly. I feel ashamed that I chose to fight him over that suggestion, and I feel a little guilty because of that.Content bel0ngs to Nôvel(D)r/a/ma.Org.
“Done thinking things through?” he asked when I stood in front of him. I nodded my head, and he sighed. “It’s not my intention to–” he said, but I stopped him.
“I know, and believe it or not, I understand. I know that I was being hasty and thoughtless earlier. I didn’t mean to fight with you in front of everyone.” I said.
“Chas,” he said in a low voice. “I don’t care if you yell or shout at me in front of everyone. You are also an alpha and, at the same time, my Luna. So you have the right to argue or fight with me. But I didn’t want you to think headlessly and go to war head-on without thinking whether you would win or not. I know how strong you are, and I might only become a burden when the time comes. But I will make sure to be your strength and your wall when those leeches decide to fight us. I know I can do something for you when the time comes. Just let me find it first.”
I was touched. I didn’t think that he was feeling that way. Because of what I can do, I ignore the fact that I still need him. I should have realized it after Daddy Jay opened my eyes. With that, I sat on his lap and held his face. “I’m sorry for making you worry. I promise to discuss things with you before I think of doing something.”
He didn’t say anything but just looked at me. He was still worried, and I can still see it on his face. Then he took my hand that was on his face, brought it to his lips, and kissed it. “I didn’t want anything to happen to you. I admit that I am afraid to lose you. That’s why I plan on doing anything I can to get stronger. So I can protect you while you protect our kind. I love you so much, Chas.”
I smiled before I kissed him. Yes, I initiated the kiss without Thea’s help. It was because I wanted to. Then I felt him respond. We fight for dominance, but maybe he wanted me more than I wanted him to win. Or I let him win. Either way, I liked what he was doing. I felt his hand travel around my body, igniting the burning desire I started to feel. I felt him get up from his chair, and just like the first time he took me after we saw each other again, he brought me to that room. I made a mental note to ask him about it since I don’t remember seeing it before.
We undressed each other, and as to how we did it, I don’t remember. I go with the flow and follow my feelings. He must be really an expert since he did it effortlessly. “I love you so much, Chas,” he said before he thrust himself inside me.
Goddess, he’s really huge. I feel like I am still a virgin every time he takes me. The pleasures he gave me as he pounded on me were incomparable. He made me feel like I was the only woman who could satisfy him. As the sound of our colliding bodies got louder, I started to feel the most pleasurable experience before we cummed together, which made us scream each other’s names. I really wish this was not going to end.