Surrender Your Sensations

“This song is for you, Sweetie. Thank you for coming tonight. Can I say it now? Ah …” He stopped strumming for a while only to say, “I love you, Meredith Kaye. Please believe me.”

Rupert continued to strum the guitar he was holding and his beautiful voice soared and embraced everyone in the club.

| It’s 12 o’clock and I need your attention |

My vision became blurry as Rupert serenaded me with the most sincere intention. His voice embraced my racing heart. I could not believe he felt something for me. I really thought this was going to be unrequited.

I was happy to hear it from him … That he loves me and that he was willing to move on from his past to love me. I know it’s hard. Ava was only gone for only a year but here he was willing to try it out with me.

However, my tears fell and couldn’t stop when Rupert’s face became clearer- little by little, his face became recognizable. The features of his face became distinct.

My mouth dropped open with sobs.

| If tonight ever makes a difference

The way that I feel

The way that I’ll remember it |

Was this real? Was I really seeing Rupert now? His eyes … He was looking at me with all those longing, determination and need. His lips were moving steadily as he sang the lyrics of the song he was singing. And his thin and pointed nose- it’s utterly admirable.

I covered my mouth as I watched Rupert. I can already see his face. His face was no longer blurry like the rest of the people here. Even though I was far away from him, I could still see him now, eye-to-eye.

My sobs could not stop. I was feeling a lot of emotions.

I stride towards the stage until I was standing at the front row. My heart was beating erratically and that’s when I knew, the feelings between us grew at the same pace- and now, we’re meeting halfway.

I … I love Rupert.

| We’ll make it out, You’ll see |

When the song ended, Rupert smiled at me and I smiled back. He was taken aback and I nodded at him. His wide eyes looked at me in confusion and amazement.

I was just crying on the spot.

I was happy and broken at the same time. Why did when I was starting to be genuinely happy, there would always be hindrances to stop me?

I could see the face of the man that I love and who loves me back. I was happy about that.

But my happiness was countered by the fact that I had a large tumor on my breast; and the man who was asking me to let him love me didn’t know about it.

Should I tell him?

“Meredith Kaye? C-Can you see me?” Still confused and amazed, he asked while holding the microphone.Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.

I giggled before I dried my tears. I nodded at him and he was in awe. I couldn’t believe it. It’s my brain’s problem that I had prosopagnosia. But my doctor said, it was also up to my brain if ever I would be able to recognize anyone’s face. This was the first time …

And I guess, that’s how much I love Rupert now. My brain wanted to remember him and that’s why this miracle happened.

In the middle of the sea of blurry faces, there I was looking in the eyes of the man I love. “I see you, Rockstar.”

***

Vulture, Rupert’s band, had to finish their set of songs for tonight. So, I had to go back to the bar’s counter to wait for Rupert.

After his little confession- nah. It’s not a little confession.

I smiled before sitting in the vacant seat at the counter. I ordered another drink before my mind went back to what just happened a few minutes ago. Rupert confessed in front of everyone that he … He loves me! Did that mean he did not love Ava anymore? Is it really me now?

Is it really possible for that to happen?

Ava was his first love and their relationship didn’t end well. It was just a year after she died. Is it possible that Rupert’s feelings will really change despite the short time we’ve been together compared to what he had with Ava before?

Suddenly, my shoulders dropped at the thought. I needed to clarify that thing to Rupert, especially that I was able to finally admit to myself that I had feelings for him too.

“Here’s your drink, Ma’am.”

My forehead furrowed as the bartender put down two more glasses. He bowed his head and immediately turned his back at me before I was able to ask him a question.

“What’s with the free drink?” I murmured, looking at the glass of Gin and Tonic.

“Hey. I hope you don’t mind if I join you.”

I was about to smell the glass of liquor I ordered when I was halted because of the unfamiliar male voice. I was stunned when the stranger sat on the vacant seat next to me. I looked at the man, his face was blurry, but judging by the way he was dressed tonight, I could sense he was looking for some woman to warm his bed.

I smirked. That’s obviously not me. Oh gosh. “Is this from you?” I had no hesitation in questioning him before pointing out the extra glass the bartender had handed me earlier. “I don’t drink,” I added before looking him in the face. It’s more like, I faked it that I was looking at him when in fact I couldn’t see his face.

He was very aggressive against it. “W-What do you mean you don’t drink? You order that,” he pointed out to the glass of liquor I ordered.

I rolled my eyes and did not even bother to answer him. Instead, I sniffed the aroma of the lady’s drink that I ordered and imagined I was really drinking it like before.

“Miss?”

I expelled a deep breath, “I’m not interested, Mister. Find another girl. I have a,” I bit my bottom lip before having a deep sigh, “boyfriend,” I finished.

“Boyfriend? I don’t see him here.”

“Don’t wait for him. When he beats you up, it’s not my fault,” I said, dismissively, and focused on sniffing the glass of liquor under my nose. “Just leave.”

“I won’t. You’re just playing hard to get-”

“I’m the boyfriend and you are?”

The unknown man and I both looked up at the speaker. It was Rupert and I grinned immediately.

“Leave my girlfriend alone while I am still asking nicely.” Then, he wrapped his arm around my shoulder before standing straight beside me.

Smiling, I just looked at his face. I didn’t care about the unknown guy and focused my whole attention on memorizing the Rockstar’s face. I think I have a new hobby now. I enjoy staring at Rupert’s face.

I still couldn’t believe I could see his facial features even though he’s far away. This was really a miracle.

“I’m sorry, Sir. I thought she was single-”

“Leave.”

I watched the small guy left. I shook my head before I averted my gaze back to Rupert’s handsome face. I gasped when he grabbed my arm and pulled me upright.

“Wait? Are we going home?”

“Why did you order alcohol? You’re not allowed to drink this, Meredith.”

“I didn’t drink that. I just smelled it.”

Unknowingly, I found myself smiling when I saw the deep frown formed on Rupert’s forehead. “Smell?” Then he pulled me away from the bar.

“Wait! I don’t want to go home yet.”

“Let’s go home.”

“Rupert! What the hell are you doing?” I tried to get out of Rupert’s grip but he wouldn’t let me go.

“We need to go home, Meredith Kaye.” Then, he turned around and looked at me. We were at the back exit of the bar. “Do you think it’s fun to see the woman you love talking to someone else?” He didn’t even bother to hide the sarcasm and anger in his voice.

“I am not doing anything.” I rolled my eyes at him and turned away to go back to the inside of the bar but Rupert grabbed my wrist and pulled me back. “Rupert!”

He pushed me and I had no choice but to step backwards. The next thing I knew, my back was pressed against the tiled wall of the women’s bathroom and Rupert was trapping me against it with his body.

There’s an obvious irritation and anger on his face. But my legs pressed against each other when I saw the desire in the way he was looking at me, intently. “I’m jealous. Why are you entertaining other guys?”

I bit my bottom lip and my gaze lowered down to his sexy lip piercing. I swallowed. My heart was beating rapidly as Rupert pressed his lower body against me. “Kiss me now, Rupert.”

I didn’t have to ask twice because he immediately claimed my lips. The metal ring brushed against my lips and I moaned. Rupert wrapped my legs around his waist as he carried me.

In between our heated make-out session- my lips uttered my feelings for him. “I love you, Rupert.”

He was stunned for a moment before reclaiming my lips. The kiss lingered before he smiled at me. “Damn. I love you more, Meredith. I promise to take care of you.”

I stared at him because of his promise. Would he still stay and take care of me when I tell him my health situation?

“Will you stay true to your promise?”

He tucked a loose strand of my hair, looking intently at me, “Try me, Sweetie.”