Regret 133
[Eden’s Pov]
I had been holding back for too long, scared that he may have someone else or that I may be wrong for thinking that we
were mates in this life.
But damn it all, today there was no going back. The ache I felt in my heart, in my soul for him not being around was too much to bear.
I’d tried to push the thought of him away from my head- to leave him for baby sister’s doppelganger, but the second he was close to me, I knew I wanted his hands all over me, wanted his lips to kiss me, to worship me.
Today was going to be the day my wolf would be re–awoken. I felt it in my bones.
And honestly, there was nobody I wanted to be around but Eros. More so, he was the one training me, pushing me to my limits, so tonight I wanted to thank him for putting so much effort into me.
I wanted those eyes to never leave mine as he caressed me, as he called me Eden, the name sounding sweet as a forgotten, timeless melody to my ears.
So I shamelessly laid out my feelings in front of him. It was a risky affair since he could always break my heart and telling him I fantasized about him was giving him power over me, but he had had that power for too long.
Denying that was doing me no good. As for the warning of Beauty… I could only hope for good.
For now, I just want to stay trapped in his arms as his lips keeps kissing me hungrily. I arched back, giving him more access as his lips opened mine.
My tongue lost the battle against him quite easily and submitted, just like the rest of my body. I felt as if I was floating, as if I was flying as Eros‘ hands brushed my skin, each touch igniting a spark within me.
I did not
eart
ot want to stop; I did not want him to stop… but the hour band of the clock struck twelve and the sound reached my
However, his ears were sharper, and he tore away from my lips after bending me backward to leave trailing kisses on my
chin.
He had barely begun, and the abrupt way he pulled back again made me grumble at the loss of contact. Heat was pooling in between my thighs, heat that only he could satiate. Was it my wolf who was feeling the need to be with him, driving me insane, or was it my selfish feelings?
I couldn’t care less.
Eros looked into my eyes, those blue eyes shining brighter, “I think we should go down and see if you awaken your wolf first. I don’t want to start something… just to be stopped midway” he muttered, breathing hard. His eyes darkened fold me exactly what he had meant. And somehow, I looked forward to it.
In fact, I saw myself leaning into his embrace, wanting to offer myself up to him “We have to go out?” I asked, sounding stupid. Content property of NôvelDra/ma.Org.
Eros pushed a lock of my hair behind my ear and muttered, “Ye Being under the moonlight helps. So let us give your wolf a full chance of showing up” Then he held out a hand for me and I slipped it in his effortlessly. There was a smile on his face. unlike his usual smirk
He seemed truly happy.. or maybe it was my mind playing tricks on me. But I let him guide me outside the meeting hall
It was on the ground floor and luckily, after such a long and tiring meeting, everybody had left.
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Now I was beginning to feel pervous all over again. What if I did not feel anything? What if my wolf never showed up again?
I would not have the confidence to even look into his eyes after all the effort he had put into me.
However, Eros pulled me close, and his touch was reassuring as he led me outside. The warmth in his hands was comforting and slowly we made it outside the front yard.
Except for a few servants, there was nobody around. All the alphas and other members had left, yet I was wary of making a fool of myself in front of the servants.
Awakening a wolf was a big thing to me, and I did not want them to watch as I transformed, it would make me nervous.
Eros looked at the sky that had a few clouds behind which the moon was hiding “Guess, you will have to wait for some time
He said and I bit my lip nervously while looking around at the huge garden. “Eden, relax. You will surely awaken your wolf this time. And even if you don’t, there is always next month.”
However, I shook my head “I thought maybe I could go somewhere where don’t have an audience,” I said, casting glances at the servants who were busy with chores.
Eros gaze followed mine, and he chuckled, “Oh, don’t mind them. They are so used to seeing us run around like wolves that they don’t even bother anymore.”
But I was not convinced. He tilted his head and asked, “Or do you want to be alone? Like completely alone?”
No, I want you” I spoke so fast that the grin on his face was back again.
“Keep saying that and I will forget about your awakening. He said, and I saw the way his eyes darkened.
“I. I meant I wanted you to be beside me. I don’t want to be alone. Just not here” I clarified, and Eros seemed to be enjoying my situation. He chuckled and scratched his chin as if he was in some deep thought.
“Do you want to go outside, then? But then, I don’t want rogues to attack us, so we have to be in a safe perimeter.” I nodded. my head.
“Hmm, alright. Then we can go to the small trail that leads to the pack house. It is not very far and has a good clearing in between where moonlight would fall on the ground directly” He said, but I did not immediately agree to it. I had been thinking about the place I wanted to be at when my wolf re–emerges.
Last time, I had simply half–rolled in the mud and grass while my wolf tried to communicate with me and show herself out of my body. I didn’t want that.
Images of a night began flashing through my mind. A night I had spent with Eros. The moonlight had shone perfectly on the huge lake and there was ample open ground around it. The night beside the lake where he had punished me, and devoured me.
Somehow, I felt the lake and the premises would be a good option to awaken my wolf and have no audience except Eros, In was also not too far from the mansion, but it was fairly secluded and nobody visited that place.
He was waiting for an answer, so I slowly looked up and asked, “Can we go to that clearing beside the lake?”
And the reaction on his face was priceless. I saw the smirk disappear from his face and his gaze darkened with desire “Are
-you sure?”
He asked, and I nodded, “Yes”
Erbs did not waste time as he turned us around and headed toward the garage, where several of his cars were parked.
And
my heart did a little happy dance when he chose the same car we had driven to the lake
last time.
He hopped into the car and turned the ignition on while I stared nervously at the open door. I hoped I would not disappoint myself tonight as I slowly stepped into the car and he began driving it to our destination.